I give up trying to understand. I REALLY REALLY do. I'm just going to blame it on being fat or something because its an easy scapegoat.

I just don't understand.

OH WELL

Perhaps it is time for a change.

Tonight.... is just another night.
Just a bit of light.
Just a little chilly,
just enough to remind me that I'm craving warmth.
and you, lost in a maze of thoughts.
I tell you it's just a little cold, and I just want some warmth.
Step in a little closer, because it's cold .
Just a little bit closer, a little more you.
Closer and it's a little less chilly inside.
And I think, If I were just a bit closer..
I would be able to hear the life inside of you.
Temptation takes me by the hand and flies me away.
Thump Thump Thump. The sound of your life.
It drowns all the sounds swimming in my ears.
And it just feels like a warm blanket.
To shield me from the cold
I hope this frozen moment never melts away.
I don't want to see the sun again.
Foolishly, I pray for eternity.
My prayers take their journey..
Close my eyes, and I drown myself in you.

I want to spit out prose the way I used to.

Where is my muse? Oh muse, come to me!

I just hope everything works out okay.

That's all I'm really hoping for. I don't think I'm asking for much.

Oh everything in my life, please work out okay.

Warm and fuzzy :).

Maybe :P

We'll see.

Can't do this to myself anymore, I HAVE to do something.

Shit.

Whatever it takes, gotta do it.

I will get where I want to be.