Experience

You'd be surprised how much of life a person has had to carry on their shoulders.

It seems that those who cannot smile are usually the ones who don't completely understand strife.

Because, the ones who can understand what a gift it is for life to be mundane.

Those who believe that they understand people, have not been touched by wisdom.

I can make my own decisions.

I've had enough.

Your Time.

Your time, your time blahblahblah.

When the hell is going to be my time?

Giving it Up

You realize that in order to obtain a dream,
there are always things you must give up.

Last summer in order to obtain a dream,
I realized that I had to give up the possibility of a US position
or any senior staff position really. The environment the people
were things I loved and enjoyed a lot and I wasn't willing to stay
in the same seat I had at the time.
I gave up graduating on time, instead I decided to stay an extra summer after.
I lost progress on my hardcore diet,
progress that for me I'm still trying to get back to.
This is among other things.

But in return, I had the most amazing experience that I could have ever had.
I met the most amazing people, ate amazing food,
learned kendo in the same university that the wkc was held,
bettered my chinese skills to a degree i never could have here at home,
and just everything about it changed my perspective about life, and everything really.

To me, all the sacrifices I gave up in some ways held me back timewise on certain things, but the experience I took away meant more than any of the sacrifices would.

Now, again, I'm faced with the sacrifices.
So many things to me I feel I must give up, so many sacrifices I must make.
But in the end I believe I will see it exactly the same way.
It will be amazing, and all I will remember is how amazing it was.
Because the sacrifices we make, we make because we believe and know that they are worthwhile.

Benefit of Doubt

I always give the benefit of doubt until I can't anymore,

sometimes I think that's what gets me into trouble.

So I PRAY, that it doesn't do it to me this time.




Man why does this always happen to me -_-.

Love...

...is something that we create for ourselves to make us believe that we are not alone.


I think I've stopped believing in it.

It's not worth it.


It's the only thing in life that makes absolutely no sense to me.

Fuck it.

It's not worth the trouble or the hassle.

There are better things.

I'm just wasting my time.

I don't know how much longer I can go on but I have to stay awake for another 13 hours. dear god someone fucking save me i think im gonna shoot myself.

having 2 finals in a day and pull an all nighter is harsh.