Reality

Maybe, it's been there all along and I just never wanted to really come to terms with it.

When you have nothing to hide behind, you have to face the reality of it.

Dammit.

Perserverance

You don't ever give up until you're dead.

I fiercely believe that if there's a will there's a way. There's ALWAYS a way.

Hahaha, to sound lame I quote Phoenix Wright 3: "A laywer doesn't cry until it's over."-Diego Armando.

You just have to be willing to push yourself.

Right now, it's rough but that's exactly what I'm doing.

The only thing keeping me from collapsing is my own willpower.

Pop

If it happens again, someone's going to die.

It takes a lot to piss me off, and I didn't think it'd happen.

But shit, some people are just REALLY good at it.

Lies

It's okay to lie to yourself.
Sometimes if it makes life easier, it's okay.
You just have to realize that you have to come to terms with the truth sometime, and sometimes that time is harder than coming to terms with reality from the get go.

But sometimes it just makes life go a little more smoothly.

We all do it.

Responsibility

If you really want it, I will help you.
I will give you what you need.
I will give you whatever I can.
This is my responsibility.
I will not shirk it.
But you will have to work hard for it, because I will work you hard.
But know that if it is truly what you want, I will do everything in my power to help you.
This has always been who I am and my role to you.
Realize that when you needed something I could give, I did.
I think inside you realize this.
That is why you think highly of my opinions.
Know that I will always be there,
and I will never stop halfway.

Venture into the Unknown

It seems like my life has taken a few unexpected turns lately. Some good some bad, but I've passed up some of the bad and now I'm in the good. Life never works out the way you expect it too, and sometimes doing something slight will affect you in a big way.

I guess I'm finally starting to accept that you don't know where you will end up, you just know you'll end up somewhere and that should be enough.

It's kind of thrilling really. Being young is nice.

Oh yeah, I need to post a story about being locked in. Yes locked in my apartment soon. I'll do it after this midterm I'm studying for. When I finally get that diploma I really have no idea where I'll be.

I just hope I can get out of the country.

開心

Sometimes you can't see your own progress, and how you are slowly creeping toward something. I don't meant a weight loss goal, or something like that. I realized today that when I look in the mirror I don't see someone who's ugly staring back at me anymore. I see someone that I like, something that I like. Not to say that I think I'm perfect, nor to say that I'm completely happy with what I see but more so to say that,

I'm starting to finally accept who I am and like it.

It starts with that, once that falls into place, so does everything else.

I'm beginning to believe in myself, love myself, and appreciate the oddities that make me who I am.

It feels good.

You don't have to be perfect to be beautiful, but rather accept that you're not and love yourself none the less.

I feel happy :).