Sometimes I really hate the way my emotions cloud my sphere of judgement. You know you shouldn't take anything to heart but sometimes it's really hard not to.

One) I have to work harder, what was given to me can be used. I just have to make the tools for it.

Two) It's much harder to run away when you know what you have to lose. I find myself having to come to terms with what I used to not really have to before. I also find myself willing to push my own boundaries to achieve these goals. I really want it, yet I feel like it's so difficult.

I find myself understanding the perspective I never did before. I am closer to what I want and yet I feel so far away.

I genuinely hope for once that it goes my way.