It's amazing how simple things in life can make you happy.

I'll enjoy for the sake of enjoying because I don't know how long it'll last.

It's a nice feeling.

I want to hug people.

No more. No less. It is what it is.

For once I gave in.

So I've decided to just ride this out.

Just enjoying it for the sake of enjoying, not trying to reach some goal. Not giving myself a deadline to reach. Ultimately I have to answer to myself. Not to anyone else, and that's okay with me.

I'll enjoy whatever moments I have, and whatever happens will happen.

There's no need to try to justify being happy.

There's no reason to try to expect anything.

If I do I know I'll just end up miserable, and over think everything.

It's time to really let go.

When did I start wanting this?

I think it's a very odd thing, but I think the best way to approach this...

is just to be myself and be confident.

Keep a level head, keep a level head.

This is what I keep telling myself.

Agh. It's hard.

Is this the end of an era?

I wonder.

Perhaps, perhaps not.

Money

Being right out of college can sometimes be harsh. You have no car unless your parents were nice enough to give you one while you were in college, more likely than not they didn't. So suddenly you've got to save up for that. Then you've got a phone bill, loans, and any other expenses that might come up. You realize that there are a lot of things that you really overlooked that your parents paid for, and you realize that you really have NO money despite what that paycheck says.

Man adult life sucks.

I need a sugar daddy.

I'm gonna take it easy, and just enjoy.

And that makes me happy.

One day you wake up and realize that the things you neatly set in place and separate into categories, have fallen out of them.

They have changed, perhaps too quickly for you.

But.....come what may, perhaps its time to take them out and rearrange them yet again.

Come what may.

I'm torn, really. Whether this is me being affected by pms or not I'm not completely sure.

On one hand, things are going well. I have no expectations and am walking in not thinking about much more than what is. I think I'm doing pretty well with that. It's a weird feeling being in that kind of frame of mind, but perhaps it's better in the long run.

On the other hand, I'm somewhat angry. The feeling of being used easily makes a person angry. But it happens and I'm over it. It is what it is and the past can't be changed. You live, you learn.