So I've decided to just ride this out.

Just enjoying it for the sake of enjoying, not trying to reach some goal. Not giving myself a deadline to reach. Ultimately I have to answer to myself. Not to anyone else, and that's okay with me.

I'll enjoy whatever moments I have, and whatever happens will happen.

There's no need to try to justify being happy.

There's no reason to try to expect anything.

If I do I know I'll just end up miserable, and over think everything.

It's time to really let go.